Hello, people out there! I am now one of you... you know who you are. You are the people who are not afraid to write so other people can see. Well, I am not quite sure I am that person yet, but I'm going to find out for myself.
I am starting to put some words out there because I have recognized that I do quite a bit of complaining. Well, a bit too much. OK... a huge heavy buttload and it's dragging me down. I wonder if I am bringing down people with me. I can feel somewhere inside that I am not the simple, light-hearted person that I once was. I can't encourage people with ease like I used to. I'm also depending on other people to encourage me... people who might even need more encouragement and light-heartedness themselves.
Somewhere else inside me tells me that the first place to start attacking the whiny part of my soul is to think of all that I have been blessed with just for today. Mom's 50th birthday was today (well, yesterday), and I have had 25 years with her right by my side, supporting my every decision and also supporting who I am not. I have a warm-hearted, loving, caring, handsome, God-fearing husband who cherishes our relationship and brings God into our life. Another simple thing yet not appearing to be so simple at this time is the fact that I have a steady job. There are millions who do not have that.
Almighty God, thank you for Mom, Alex, and my job. I am going to start becoming thankful for all the goodness and richness you have placed in my life and what You have created for me. You are my Savior who has a plan for me, and for that I am thankful.
I have intentionally limited myself as to what I can write in this blog. The whole purpose is to change my heart and to bring myself back to light. I still feel free to write musings, but my goal is to see a transformation of my soul, so that I can become more of who God wants me to be. I believe that He wants me to be able to encourage others like I used to, but He might want something else from me now. We'll see. In time, I will see what will become of this blog and where He will lead me through it.
Thanks for listening! ;)